My list of things I am looking forward to enjoying this weekend.

1.) The Utah State Fair. I love the fair.... Love it. But, I haven't gone yet. Normally, I go all the damn time... but not this year for some odd reason. Nothing makes me feel better then looking around at your typical fair-goer and knowing how much better I am then them. I can't wait for this boost of self esteem.

2.) Eating Fair Food. Do it... I dare you. Throw caution to the wind and eat that deep fried something. They aren't sure its food... they aren't sure how it got into the boiling fat... but damn it all.... they are going to serve it up and you are going to eat it.

3.) Going to Desert Star with my sibs. I just hope the show is funny. If not... then this will be suckage.

4.) Not having a cardio class tonight. Seriously, four in one week. WTF was I thinking. It gonna kill me.

5.) Sleeping in tomorrow.

My list of choices

1.) Butterfly farm and shopping OR leisurely day at the beach. Tough decision as both kind of sound fun.

2.) Tell her OR not tell her. An ethical dilemma if I have ever faced one. I've been honest up until now. Does it appear that I am not being honest if I don't tell her the update.

3.) Go to step class OR go home. I don't know why I am torturing myself with four cardio classes a week. UGGGG... it done be hard. And step is the worst.

4.) Develop my training lesson plan OR study up for my certification. I don't really wanna do either. The third option is surf the web.

My list of things that I am tired of

1.) The way my knee feels right now after I whapped it on a weight plate at the gym this morning. It done hurts, bad, chick-a-dees. BAD... and I have step class tonight. We are going to see how this goes.



2.) Having a computer that just randomly decides to work at glacial speed. Its like my computer just decides that its had enough "processing" and now it just wants to take it easy. Uggggg... chick-a-dees... UGGGGGG!

3.) The Rollercoaster that is my life lately. I feel like my life is this:


a completely knotted mess and who really knows what way is up. I try, except for one dark moment in my past, to run from all drama. I abhor it... but right now... I kinda feel smack in the middle of it. I don't like it so much.

4.) Waiting for my cruise. Waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting... there is a certain amount of boredom that is built into waiting... waiting... waiting.

5.) Anything and EVERYTHING Taylor Swift. This girl needs to SIT down and shut her off key mouth.

My of things I don't understand.

1.) Why - o - why don't the radio stations play Single Ladies by Beyonce any more. I can't explain why, but this song ALWAYS makes me happy. Do the dance, Marc... Do it.



2.) Why - o - why did they wait until the third week of school to begin construction on Foothill Blvd? They had all summer... and yet they start now.

3.) Why - o - why do people create drama for themselves? I know, I know, sometimes its necessary... but I live in a state that abhors drama... and when there is drama i have a mini come apart.

4.) Why - o - why don't people see the world the way I do? T'would be sooooo much easier and drama free... plus everybody would think that I am HOT.

My list of things I want to say to her.

1.) I'm sad too, because if I leave it wont be the same.

2.) Who knows what the future holds... and this may turn out to be nothing.

3.) If it turns out to be something, please be happy for me.

4.) You are important to me and so is our relationship. If I leave, I'll maintain it, if you will.

5.) I love you.

My list of things that I have discovered.

1.) Being in an almost constant state of hating your job for the past two years really begins to wear on a girl. I'm not kidding you, chick-a-dees... I am in a funk and it aint going no where.

2.) Glee is probably the funniest show I have seen in a long time. Seriously, kiddos, are you watching this? I just happened to discover it last night when I was to lazy to change the channel after my favorite dance show and I discovered Glee. Oh my shit... I thought this was a riot. Completely hi-larious and slightly inappropriate. Loves it! Start watching it... NOW!

3.) My Zumba teacher is sexy. Long legs, a full range of motion in those hips and core strength that doesn't quit... she done be SEXY ya'll. WHOA!!!

4.) Step Class is hard. Seriously... HARD. You would think, if you were just watching a step class, that it doesn't look so hard. You would be wrong. Its HARD!!!!

5.) I really don't like being tired all the time. Damn cardio.
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My list of things I am dreading right now

1.) My cardio class tonight. The one yesterday kicked my ass... the one tonight probably wont be much better.

2.) Setting up for my training tomorrow which will take approximately 2 hours. Yuck... and even yuckier.

3.) Sitting at work tonight until 5. I'll probably leave early. Nobody will notice... and it will make me feel better.

4.) Waiting for SYTYCD to start. I really enjoyed this show and I'm excited for it to start up again... I just dont want to wait for it. Hopefully, there will be another two or three good bodies to look at.

5.) Waiting 45 more days until October 24th.