My list of things I am not looking forward to:

1.) My upcoming dinner date. No, D'Nell, I'm not talking about you.

2.) Waiting 5 more weeks.

3.) Training tomorrow.  The thought of it is bugging me right at this moment.

4.) Another day of looking at that damn website.

As a reminder...

my birthday is coming up.                

My list things I should say but don't.

1.) "You aren't any better off.  You are still rearranging your life to meet his needs. All you are doing now, is lying to him... but you are lying to him to protect his ego. And why are you protecting his ego... so he will call you... and you can still pretend he is in love with you."

2.) "I think, one day, far from now, we will be better friends."

3.) "I don't want to continue. I think I've grown all I can with you.  Its time to move on."

4.) "This might be all that you are."

5.) "This was a good year. Thanks"

My list of things that I heart

1.) My small little group of 9 friends that I get to play with on Thursday and Sunday evenings. They don't know it... but I heart them.

2.) The cute guy who flirted with me as he drew my blood today. It done made me feel sexy ya'll.

3.) My cute sister. Tis her birthday tomorrow. Don't ask me how old... I really have no idea.

4.) A blue ball full of glitter. It bounces and rolls and breaks things....but I heart it none the less.

My list of things I wanna do with Michael.

1.) Shoot s'more Zombies. That was fun. I'm pretty shitty at shootin' zombies... but I had a good time.

2.) Read his cards, again. I don't know if he enjoyed it... but I was on that day. ON... and I was a'feelin it.

3.) Spend a weekend with him and the rest of our friends at my family's cabin.

4.) Get drunk with him. I know he doesn't drink... at all... but I think Michael would be Hi-larious to get drunk with.

5.) Send him today's real list.

My list of recent Glee disappointments


1.) Will Shuester (or however you spell it). Seriously... he done be an ass hole and boring... but... Matt Morrison.. are you kidding.

















Oh yes... I will tell him something good.

2.) Themes. I am not a girl that likes a theme. You don't have to hit me so hard in the face to get me to get "it". I'll probably just figure it out. Enough of the themes.



3.) Pokerface. Of all the songs Leah and Idina could have sung together they choose Pokerface. Harken back to I dreamed a Dream the week before... and then you will realize the great let down that is Pokerface.

My list of things I am excited for

1.) Milkshakes with a good friend. The reasons for the milkshakes are never good... but that chats always are. This one sounds like a doozy.

2.) Glee party with Keri.

3.) 95 badges and a shiny new hat.

4.) The month of June. This means only 7 more weeks until I go back.

5.) Idol is over. Now I will have those few other weeknights to myself.  And this is a great thing.
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