When did I give up on me?

I had some body fat testing done today and I was horrified. From where I was last year at this time to where I am now is incredible. My body fat is high, uncomfortably high. The clothes I really like to wear dont fit. I drink to much Coke and I smoke. As C asked "When did I give up on me?". The last year has been a mess, but it's time to stop using that as an excuse. It's time feel comfortable in my body. It's time to be happy again.

1.) Stop smoking. I started Chantix last week. You are supposed to continue to smoke for the first week you start taking Chantix. That week, for me, is up today. So, as of tomorrow I am smoke free.

2.) Regularly going to the gym. I stopped going to the gym for quite a while and then started going sporadically. Starting tomorrow, I will be back going every day.

3.) Eating healthy and tracking my nutrition. I started doing this on Monday.

I will be making regular posts to keep any interested reader updated.

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My list of things I wonder.

1.) Is it odd that the woman I took my cat, Bitch-face, to be groomed needed grooming herself? The woman shaves cats for a living, but seems unable to shave her face.

2.) Am I a heavy heart to carry?

3.) What should be my magnum opus?

The search

My list of things I am in love with

1.) Darren Criss. I find him wonderfully beautiful.

2.) 

Matt Nathanson. Great voice. Funny as all hell. And kind of cute.

3.)

Johnny Galecki. I've been watching Big Bang Theory and I am finding Leonard wonderfully charming and cute.

My list of things I am enjoying right now

1.) The insightfulness of my friend, Careen. Girl done told it like it is.  I love it.

2.) Being in my office. I was out of the office in floor support all last week, so being in the office enough to send a list out is fantastic.

3.) All things Bob Harper

 

4.) The fact that it is noon.

My list of things I want to share.

1.) This

I like the song, but I have been in the place that this song thinks of.  This kid, though, blew me away. 

2.) I watch American Idol. Not really ashamed to admit it.  I think I've made it clear that one of my favorite things to do is to watch people do something they excel at. Granted, there are people on Idol that I don't care for, but there are some really excellent singers. I think the kid above is one of them.

3.) At this point in my life I feel more lost... more adrift than I have ever felt before.

4.) I am still angry at him.

5.) I lonely.

My list of things I am feeling right now

1.) A wee bit scared.

2.) In awe.

3.) Tired.

4.) Was it to little, to late?