Josh's Pink Library

A list of your responses




1.) As an adult, yes, I get to choose what I want to do. This was the expected response. With age comes the maturity to make ones own decisions and then deal with what comes next.



2.) Split decision here. Most of you said even though I am an adult we, there are still things one must do. Hugging ones grandmother for example. Others of you said, If you dont want to, dont. I don't know what I choose yet. I'm having a hard time with my motivation for choosing not to hug my grandmother.



3.) I am running a race, but I'm the only one running it. Kimberly wins the award that most struck home to me. She said my brother and I are both running a race, but we are on different tracks. The tracks may be very close together, but we are running a different race. I've been thinking a lot about this race concept, and even though Kimberly compared it to Nascar, I'm taking it back to a foot race. When I originally asked the question, I was seeing my brother and I running a foot race with him always a half a lap ahead and I was never able to catch up. With the situation that I originally refered to, I saw myself closing that gap, even pulling ahead. But Kimberly got me a'thinkin'. All of a sudden, my brother was removed from my image of the race. There I was, out on the track, running as hard as I could to catch up to something that isn't even running. All of a sudden, Josh is alone on the track, running as hard as he could, to win a race that nobody else is running. This drove me to another thought, that really, the only person I'm racing is me. I haven't figured this all out yet... but I'm running to catch me. Those of you who "know" me, know I bring a bucket full of insecurities where ever I go... maybe stemming from the pins on the coat, who knows... but maybe this time, Im running just to beat me. Maybe I get to win the race, even if my brother finishes his race first.



4.) The velveteen rabbit says "Once you believe you're real, you get to be real." Maybe, just maybe, Careen and I will get to be real together some day.