1.) I have no empathy. I've discovered that I don't recognize nor understand the feelings of others. One step further, I don't recognize how my actions (whether positive or negative) can have an impact on others (whether positive or negative). Most people don't comment on the positive things, but it is the negative actions that pose a problem. I don't know how I became this way. I don't know if losing empathy was a survival technique or I just never really had it to begin with. I decided to try to find empathy (like I hid it beneath my bed somewhere), but a good friend told me that would be a waste of time. I wonder.
2.) I need to hold a mirror up to my life more often. I recognized an issue that I felt a friend of mine was having. After talking to him for a bit, I began to see that I have disengaged (emotionally, mentally and physically) from the most important people in my life. It was a powerful thing to see. Disengaging from family and friends from a distance is easy to understand. Disengaging from family and friends when they live 15 minutes away is not so easy to understand.
3.) Sending a long overdue email was hard, but worth it. An email was sent, an explanation was offered, and an apology was given.
4.) Those that are important will always be there. I will always be there for him, whether he knows it or not. But, others, whom I love, will always be there for me. No matter how hard I may have pushed them away.
5.) I might be in love with Ezio.
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