Josh's Pink Library

My list of things that are a' bringing me down

1.) Studying for tests. I hate this. And, I have two tests, both for work, that I have to study for. I know I am a bad test taker. For some reason, I always seem to study that which will have one question on the test and completely over look information what will comprise about 90% of the questions on the test. Great. I love failing.

2.) I'm now feeling a terrific amount of pressure to perform. What if I fail or don't live up to expectations. Great! It was easier before when they didn't "know me". Great, I did this to myself. UGGGGG!

3.) Feeling kind of/mostly OVERWHELMED. Its really getting to me. I have not felt this way in a long. I have some rather high stakes things happening for me right now and they all fell out of control. Even my board of "Things I Can Control" feels dominated by things completely and totally out of my control. WHOA!

4.) I fell like my body has gone backwards. I feel like I've lost progress. I feel like most of this is due to the stress I am under.