Josh's Pink Library

My list of things I am trying to do today.

1.) I am trying not to send out a depressing list. Sadly, I think I am going to fail on this front.

2.) I am trying not to give up. I don't know, specifically, what I'm trying not to give up on. Life maybe. Im not suicidal, but I just don't wanna play any more. Maybe its me that I'm trying not to give up on.

3.) I am trying to think of other things that I might be good at. Yes, this is things I might be good at doing for a living... not necessarily that I would enjoy doing for a living... just other things.

4.) I am trying to stay positive and buck up. It will get better. I have to believe that... but now-ish, it sucks.

5.) I am trying to decide which is worse... now... or when Marmee was my boss. It feels like now is worse... but I really hated Marmee.